To all of you out there who get frustrated with me when I do not answer your emails or phone calls as quickly as you would like (or ever, sometimes – sorry about that), maybe this story will give you a little bit of insight into me.
First let me say, that by God’s grace, I am getting better at responding in a timely manner. But here is a glimpse into why you may not always hear from me when you think you should.
Yesterday afternoon I had two things that I wanted to get done: scrub the bathroom and make some phone calls for a friend to people that I didn’t know, asking them to sign up for something that I believed in. As the afternoon wore on, I realized that I was only going to be able to get to one of those two things.
I picked cleaning the extremely dirty bathroom.
For the first time ever, I was able to leave my son unattended with a group of peers on the school playground, and not worry about him exploding. And I was able to leave both of my children with a group of peers and one adult who may or may not have been capable of keeping the peace at the church gymnasium after Sunday School. I was able to relax and talk with friends, and come back 10 minutes later to find all children still having fun, in both instances.
Honestly, just a month ago, I would have laughed if you told me that was possible. I would not allow my son out of my sight unless I was confident that there was another adult who was aware of his needs and could intervene appropriately, if he became stressed out with a peer.
I finally feel like a normal mother!
I don’t plan on leaving him unattended for more time anytime soon. But 10 minutes is amazing! I am so proud of him, and his peers who have embraced his needs and support him, while teaching him how to act more, “normal.”
Thank you for all of your prayers! They are working! I pray for all of you waiting for a breakthrough, that it would come, and that God would hug you while you wait. For those of you who have children with more significant disabilities, who know they will probably never see such a breakthrough, my heart goes out to you and I pray God’s promise, that He will never leave you, and that His grace is sufficient.
Also, I realize that this new state of being may be fleeting, and may not appear again for some time. Just like when I learn a new interpersonal skill, but then get lazy and backslide. I hope, for his sake, more than mine, that he keeps on building on this ability!